10:38AM Tuesday morning of Sept. 29th 2009

Location: Grand Library-USC

I have been complaining for the past 4-6 months or so (as far as I could remember) of how my life simply did not turn out exactly how I wanted it to be.

In the eyes of strangers I could always hide my sadness, bitterness, sense of failure, and self doubt... all you gotta do is just smile and walk away. But one thing I couldn't do was walking away from my self. The more I hid, the more heavy my heart fell.

The purpose of this entry, however, is not to end there.

SOMETHING happened beginning of this year. God happened.

In my attempt to introduce God to my friend, Michael, I ended up re-introducing God into my life. How God works so wonderfully...

I finally feel overjoyed with my life. I feel calm. I feel relaxed. I feel happy with where I am in my life. I feel happy with who I have become.

The girl who looked down on everyone's flaws became the girl with more flaws than anyone she has met and God helped see her sins. He helped her sympathize and have compassion for others. He helped her not be stumbled by others' sins; instead, He gave her the heart to help others... God's love is so over-powering it's hard to think about without tears.

God centered life IS by FAR the most rewarding life any one could ever live.

This journey I am on is one hell of a journey and I am loving every moment of it.