I guess I'm 24 now. 25 if I were in Korea.

Couple of things first:
- I can't believe my brother's getting married before 2011 hits. So surreal.
- I can't believe I'm gonna be one of the bridesmaids already... first time for everything
- I can't believe I still look like I'm 13.

Now I got all of my "I can't believe's" out of the way, onto deeper things. No, not really...

This year has been... hard. Definitely a humbling, humbling, year... I guess I must have been prideful beyond my imagination to feel THIS humbled and to know that I still have a bit more pride in me.

God has been so active in my life that my heart can't take it and my eyes need some time off from being so puffy! It's now 2010 and I can say that God loves me unconditionally and with great depth.

My new goal in life is to be forgiving.

I'm the best sinner alive. I sin left and right. front and back. No lie. I have no idea how I do it... But what's even more amazing is the transforming heart that God is molding after each event of sin. HOW forgiving is he! If he can forgive me for what I'VE done, how can I not forgive others for the smallest things they've done?

Maybe... just maybe I've grown a bit. I may look like I'm 13 years old... but have been touched by God for 24 years...

I had previously dedicated this blogger to postings regarding my spiritual walk.

God has been wonderful to me beyond I can fathom. Things definitely are NOT going the way I had imagined and planned, but I'm okay with that. In the end, whichever path I end up in will be the best one because it's the path that God has chosen for me before I was even conceived.

Just the thought of that is overpowering.

In the past, I took joy in my academics. Now, academics isn't the end to my means. Funny how God shapes the way you think and indirectly molds your life around Him.

Now, I'm not the girl that attends every church event. The reason used to be that I don't exactly get along with my church girls... well, let me rephrase that... I don't exactly find deep-connection with my church girls. I don't think there's anyone to blame for that. Just different personalities, different background, different culture, different way of thinking.... I had naively believed that all Korean Christian girls were like that. Silly me. I've started meeting girls that I get along SO incredibly with. I have no idea how... it's as though we've known each other for years.

Weird thing is that we all have the same last name, Park.
Weirder thing is that we're from the same clan of Park.

Anyway, it's pretty apparent that Christians grow as a community through interactions with one another. In my opinion (purely my opinion), I grow as a Christian by reaching out to non-Christians and being with them through their spiritual journey.

I used to not look favorably upon those I never got along with for the past 13 years. Now, I just hope that they'll warmly welcome those that God is bringing to CPC through me.